great things
if I were to stay in the bubble I'm very comfortable with then why must I burst the bubble and stepped out of it into the world that is not welcoming to anyone anymore. why must you leave? you left but you came back then you leave again. am I a ragdoll?
Night Thoughts
With you around i don't feel different but i just felt comfortable. Though we aren't an item but we acted as one and talking to you seems different. The conversation we had so far feels like as though we aren't just merely two people talking about something. From the day we celebrated birthday together till the day i break fast at your place i cherish everything. I've been trying to understand what you like or prefer and distance the actions you might get annoyed but whenever i tried i just felt it wasn't me. We ended the 'conversation' not on a subtle note and to me its a major move from messaging for years to someone i knew for few months in a place where miracles happened to me. I just wonder whether you have about me cause i know i haven't been able to.
The day is about to end and the feeling that i have already lost you all started in the morning but its still surging through my veins pass my heart and draw memories. Gosh, woots, and 'listen!' were the words that kept playing in mind. These captions do attached to you.
Nothing triggered me to reminisce of the past till i started watching 'High School Musical' and it all started suddenly. So how am i to handle all this? Hope i could find a solution.
Yes after this week it would be a whole 2 weeks of attachment and its in clementi. Some nights i lay on the bed thinking why i choose to be different and not just go through the norm like most NS personnel. I just want to prove my past that i'm worthy much more worthy now. I guess if coincidence happen to be nice then i would just meet some of my friends while on duty or just bump into you. I always wonder what would we do or talk about if one day we see each other on the streets, would i have the courage to say hi or even if did would you acknowledge it. I suppose its subjective depends whom you with i guess. If you could hear me now i just want to say 'good night'.
This were my thoughts for the whole week.
The day is about to end and the feeling that i have already lost you all started in the morning but its still surging through my veins pass my heart and draw memories. Gosh, woots, and 'listen!' were the words that kept playing in mind. These captions do attached to you.
Nothing triggered me to reminisce of the past till i started watching 'High School Musical' and it all started suddenly. So how am i to handle all this? Hope i could find a solution.
Yes after this week it would be a whole 2 weeks of attachment and its in clementi. Some nights i lay on the bed thinking why i choose to be different and not just go through the norm like most NS personnel. I just want to prove my past that i'm worthy much more worthy now. I guess if coincidence happen to be nice then i would just meet some of my friends while on duty or just bump into you. I always wonder what would we do or talk about if one day we see each other on the streets, would i have the courage to say hi or even if did would you acknowledge it. I suppose its subjective depends whom you with i guess. If you could hear me now i just want to say 'good night'.
This were my thoughts for the whole week.
Life goes ON
even if i can't accept the fact,
Life goes on
dislike it so much,
Life goes on
feels it isn't enough,
Life goes on.
Lesson learned : Life Goes On
Life goes on
dislike it so much,
Life goes on
feels it isn't enough,
Life goes on.
Lesson learned : Life Goes On
8 more weeks
Yep 8 more weeks to my Passing Out Parade(POP). Feeling damn good now cause can't wait for live firing and field camp next week and the week after consecutively. Woots. See ya people. YES I AM STILL BOTAK
Opening
Looking through the steel yet seductive eyes piercing the soul of a lost boy. Getting around everything that was constructed by 'Kids Central' and 'Cartoon Network' seems impossible yet plausible. Smooth skin, sweet smelling even after baking under the cruel heat, all that matters was the exchange of the skin temperature which makes them sticks together. Untamed hairs on the under toned calves interlocking with a barren field smooth all over as running a hand on a baby's bum, with unexplored hills yet symmetrical in ways words could just mean perv.
Inspired by Family and Other Accidents by Shari Goldhagen
Inspired by Family and Other Accidents by Shari Goldhagen
Paradigm Shift
Choosing the path i want to take in order to achieve a great future. Apparently this is what we call tedious. Choose something that I really enjoy doing. Think about things I do on a regular basis, and know something about. So what if I enjoy playing with toys and i play toys on a regular basis and I know toys even without the packaging, should i be a toy designer? or toy critic? You see there is no definite answer but just answers for me to choose and experience myself. Whether it will work out or not that is another question i will have to answer later.
Grad day
3 years ago i've said it before. my childishness was the reason but today you said something different and i quote "I don't know when i will see you again....". left me speechless and disbelief.
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